o.O am i or am i not?

i am sorry but again, this is not my initial material to blog about. so, i guess pay-day blog will have to be postponed to another day….

before i even start to write about anything, let me just set this straight. whatever i wanted to write may offend some people, but then again maybe not. alright, it’s about a homosexual couple i met on the train. i don’t have any personal agenda against them. maybe that wasn’t clear enough so, i’ll stress it again, I DO NOT DISCRIMINATE homosexuals.

actually, it’s nothing serious. nowhere near serious. i have never thought about the possibility of me being a homophobe. not until today that is. seriously, i do have friends who are gay and i get along well with them. i don’t feel anything. just like friends. thus, i never regarded myself as a homophobe.

however, today’s event had me thinking about it again. it’s a normal sight to see them around. (i mean, they are normal human afterall.) as usual, it was crowded in the damn train. you can actually see people’s face getting squashed on the mirror. go figure how packed (like sardines) it is. anyway, by chance, i’m situated near a homosexual couple. (lesbians, if you are wondering…) the ‘girly’ girl was touching the ‘manly’ girl all over the place. i don’t mind her touching everywhere, mind you. to me, it’s like a free show. it’s even much more interesting than television.

but, the problem is, she is TOUCHING MY BUTT! it wasn’t once or twice. it was from the very moment i stepped into the sardine-train until i finally reach my station! what is this! i’ll tell you what it is. SEXUAL HARASSMENT. finally, i get the feeling of all those victims of sexual harassment. the feeling of not being able to react. i mean, what if it was an accident. it was after all, peak hours. it’s jam-packed. (yea, yea, or you can even say i’m chicken…i’ll admit that at least)

nevertheless, no harm done. i’ve let it all out and i am going to put it behind me. as if it’s such a big deal. i just love to exaggerate. but the question remains, am i a homophobe? i don’t think so. i’m not even sure if i’m homosexual. the fact that i’m not involved in any relationship yet makes me feel that i’m on the fence. that is, i could be straight or i could be wavy.

i’ve never experienced any disgust when i look at gay couples except for this very encounter. i NEVER felt that being a homosexual is something embarrassing. actually, i admire those who DARE come out of the closet, admitting to the world who they really are. it takes a lot of courage to do it. it takes even more courage to actually involve oneself in a serious relationship.

in my opinion, homosexual is not by choice. it’s a natural process (or you could say, it’s a minor error during the formation of the hormone secreting system) where the body secretes more testosterone or estrogen in female or male. hence, that is to say, it is perfectly natural for this earth to have homosexuals and heterosexuals. so, the next question is, ‘why do people discriminate against homosexuals?’ lack of understanding? fear of community’s view? whatever the answer may be, it is still UNFAIR to these selected few (i don’t know for sure the precise number, so i’ll leave it at that)

why is gay marriage not allowed? it is their right to achieve the happiness they want. it is the right of every human being. we feel pity for those maids that are tortured. we feel sorry for those animal that are being used as guinea pigs for testing new products (cosmetics, food, you name it, they have it) so, why do we discriminate them just because they are different? they are living being, too for goodness sake! they breathe the same air as us. walk the same soil as us. why is it so different? what is so different?

so, i guess i’ve answered my own question. i am NOT a homophobe. not now and never will. while i have answered the question i posted, you can ponder this topic and answer these questions yourself. have a ‘great’ time.

love,
natalie
09042008/1.32am

p.s: i apologise for any inaccuracies scientifically (afterall, i was never good at memorising….)

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