enough is enough…

i’d be lying through my teeth if i said that i am not angry. i’d be faking it like mad if i said that i didn’t care, that i didn’t mind one bit of it. who would be that naive to think that i won’t be feeling anything after so many times of this stuff? and i am being really nice by saying it’s stuff instead of something else because it’s really pissing me off.

seriously, why is it that people always think that it’s ok to do certain things without a care for others? what? so, your feelings matter like there is no other thing in this world and other people’s feelings are to be trampled on? damn. you suck.

i’ve had enough. yet, there isn’t much that i can do in this reality that i am facing. no saying it out loud that “you should rot in hell!” no “damn you”. no “get the hell out of my face!” why, oh why am i not able to say all these out loud?

why, oh why, am i such a coward? using the pretense of “i’m maintaining peace…” or “i’m an adult now, i should be more mature in handling things”, everything goes unnoticed. if not for this stupid blog that i had created ages ago, i don’t think these nonsense would have surfaced.

i wonder if not having a blog would have been a much better option. given the circumstances, it’s going to be the downfall of me when my future employer sees all these crap. oh well. live life to the fullest. and, i seriously, don’t give a damn anymore. too tired to think straight. too hot-headed to think rationally.

love,
natalie
14102009/7.50pm