could it be?
could it be that i did a terrible mistake this time around. i have always thought that as long as i try, i can make anything work. but, as of now, it’s becoming more and more apparent that sometimes, talent do come in hand when you choose what you want to do in your life. it’s not about whether you like something then you can do it. no, apparently that’s not the case. i wonder if i really took the wrong turn in my life at the beginning of this semester. it’s only been approximately seven weeks, and yet, i am still clueless. i am still lost. i can’t do much with this head of mine. i can’t. studying although not as much as it should be, i still studied. i tried. it did not work. and there is nothing much i could do about it. makes me wonder if i were to take another major, would the result be much different? would it help? would it really make me feel better? would it make my life easier?
hell yeah! it’s going to make my life that much easier. i don’t have to count and count and still don’t get the answer that i want. i only need to read, read, and read. what is so hard about reading and memorising? it’s not as hard compared to counting and counting, hitting the calculator again and again, yet, you still don’t get the freaking answer.
but, no. i chose this. i will make it work. no backing out. no turning back. no regrets.
love,
natalie
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